more than that

This week has been a hectic one for me. I had to go to K.Tganu on Thursday to get the new title deed for my bike. Then at night I went to see the futsal match at the sport centre. Last night also the same thing. Well, Fabregas menang la! He even scored 8 goals for his team. Ehem2, nak bangga lebih2 pun tak boleh......

And also, I had this huge argument with Shafirul and as everybody knew. WE BROKE UP. Sedihnya Allah je yang tahu. I know what I did was wrong and I took full responsibility. But I wont let it go that easily. Not just yet. I knew I had to do something to save my relationship. I had to make the first move. So what I did was I asked him to accept  me back. I called and I said sorry and asked for another chance. Sume orang nak amek side Shafirul. Everybody said it was my fault. You guys didn't have to make me feel bad la..! I'm not really sure where it all started. But what I'm really sure is that I caused the breaking up thing. This thing has been happening for quiet a long time. And we chose to not really talk about it.

Now, everything is fine just the way they were before. We are together now.

Honey.., I'm sooooo sorry for what I did. I know I've crossed the line, I've crossed the limit, I've hurt you deeply, I've broken your heart badly, I've broken it into pieces and its really hard to fix it. I don't know what has gotten into me. I know this is the second time I buat masalah. Ini dah kali ke berapa I cari pasal dgn you. Tapi you sabar je dgn perangai I. But you have to understand..., its not easy for me here.... He's here with me. Everything I do here, I'd do with him. And hes helped me alot. I feel bad to both of you. But now you know what my decision is. I choose you.., and it has always been you. Not any other guys. This kind of thing will happen again. There'll be more fights, there'll be more arguments, there'll be more 3rd persons. This thing happens in every relationship and I hope we'll get through them together. I love you and will always do.